Chain of events

“Anger is never without a reason, but seldom with a good one.”- Ben Franklin.

In my opinion when you are angry with yourself, it’s the worst. There is no one else to blame. When it’s someone else’s fault you can accept it and deal with it almost instantly. Tell them it’s alright, to be more careful next time, and it’s over, but when YOU are to blame it’s a whole different ball game. The situation at hand tends to replay itself over and over rubbing your carelessness, irresponsibility or forgotten mental note in your face until you crucify yourself silly.

YOU are to blame. You could have prevented it. What were you thinking? Do you ever learn your lessons? What the hell is wrong with you? These are just some of the nicer things that tend to run through your head. Nevertheless, if your anything like me you begin to blame others, start rationalizing your innocence, and shifting responsibility towards them, all in the same moments of thought. The outcome still puts you in the loser seat and with an edgy attitude towards any who might have helped in your bad decisions.

Anger definitely alters your prospective. Nice guy one minute, and frickin psycho the next, without any warning just a change of events and circumstances and there you go, pissed off and ready to snap, especially towards any who might bear any responsibility. A burning sick to your stomach like when you lose your much needed wallet, or end up in jail, or crashing your parents car with no insurance. These are all preventable situations based on bad decisions, and when they happen and your to blame, it feels like your instantly high on emotion. Fear, rage, regret, self haterd all come rushing to your senses and smack you with relentless force.

There has got to be a better way of handling these emotions. Maybe it’s normal to feel those overwhelming feelings, or maybe we are to hard on ourselves. I’m sure what to do in those situations. To fight the anger in a self counseling fashion tends to just piss me off more , but in the height of the moment there has got to be a way of maintaining a clear head, if not only for the sake of the people around me.