Who Makes The Grass Green?

It seems to me that my attitude is my responsibility. Big revelation huh? Well it has turned out to be more challenging for me to be optimistic vs. skeptical and pessimistic. Naturally or by habit, I have developed into someone who tends to find "the catch" in almost every situation, it's a fucking curse. My troubles with this line of thinking almost certainly began as a child, I learned to not put much faith in people's promises, and It's grown into the loss of faith in mankind as a whole at times. I believe most of us have been conditioned to support our lack of hope in ourselves and each other.

I envy envy the optimist approach, and I am on a quest to arrive at their holy happiness and hope! To always see the glass half full, and never bout with insecurity and self doubt ever again! Well... I'm sure it's not like that, but I am determined to find out what it is like to be hopeful and encouraged no matter what, at any given moment. I must learn the art of "The Greener Side". I am the master who makes the grass green, and it seems to me to be my job to view my life a bit more greener.

My lawn is good, my lawn is grand, and yes I am the weather man.

Second time...

This is the second time my wife and I have been outbid in our house hunting journey. We put an offer in at $84,999 including 6% sales concession covered by seller, and than we had to up our offer to $90.000 including 6% sales concession covered by seller, but our offer was beaten by a buyer who had $85,000 Cash.

The process of house hunting is damn near a full time job, from being online to physically looking at homes it is, or can be very consuming. All of the financing and whatnot is quite complicated, not to mention all the mental notes regarding each home you look garage, basement, sq. feet, and the list goes on). I guess we are back to the drawing board. Hopefully we will find the right home soon. Paying $800 in rent for a 725 sq. foot 2 bed room apartment is a motherfucker.

Sponsor Phil

There is a guy at my AA classes that has consistently been a pleasure to listen to. Mid fifties and full of stories I am drawn to his ability to find humor in the small things and tends to keep an attitude I admire. Turns out he used to play for the Chicago Blackhawks and is still in the hockey world scouting young bucks. My P.O. suggested I get a sponsor to assist me in the program. Now I am not so much into following the program, it is difficult for me to deal with the God part like a step, and etc.

I usually leave before the closing "Lord's Prayer", but this time i stuck it out and approached Phil. He seemed delighted to have my interest and At this time in all honesty I'm not really struggling with not drinking, or taking pills, so I don't plan on having to call anyone to talk me out of anything, I'm a little to hard headed for that shit anyhow, but I can definitely foresee going fishing with this man and just listening to his stories.

I am glad to be sober and I enjoy getting up at 7am to attend these meetings. For me personally it is a good way for me to start the day. Grown folk dealing with grown folk issues, that's what it really is. Even if you don't follow the program, the doors are open to anyone who "Desires not to drink".

Working In The Past.

I have a goal to reach in my musical endeavors, that is to create, and complete 26 projects in my career. They must be 30 min. or more, and obviously worthy of listening to. The trouble with the whole deal is, my turnover rate can't keep up with my new creativity. It is hard to capture the essence of a song you wrote months ago, and are now finally getting around to.

With that being said, I need to focus on recording songs as I write them, and try to focus on pushing my energy towards my best work yet. I am not as confident with my past work as much as I am with my current, and it gets frustrating trying to catch up before I get to my now material.

I am beginning to understand what works best for me. If I am to be excited about my music, it must be fresh to me or I get bored with it quickly. Progression is the key, but letting some work be the stepping stone for others is hard for me to do. So many beats and so many songs that just don't make the cut. I would like to utilize everything, but in reality it's impractical.

Boonie Mayfield

I love this cat!

6 Classics

These 6 classics have changed my musical life in one way or another. What makes them classic? Obviously production plays a large part, but so does the content, teamwork, swagger, freshness, and overall energy. I appreciate these LP's because they are the essence of an art that I have come to love. If you are a hip hop appreciator or just interested, I would recommend them highly. Enjoy.

Future Humans

Can you imagine being able to see, and taste sound, or running barefoot in 20 below weather? This video is one of a few that Discovery did, it showcases 4 people with amazing abilities, and scientist that might be able to extract it genetically. Video 4 of 10. Enjoy

Crash!!!

I'm not sure if you have had the joy of all your hard work being threatened. But I can assure you that it is quite a fucking ride. It would be great, and grand to just have that careless easygoing approach to all the unfortunate things that happen in life, but I am not there at this time. What happened? Well, my computer crashed and I lost who knows how many hours of work, and over $1,400 in money spent on what is no more. I had a virus infection some time back and just medicated it with AVG and whatnot assuming that I was fine, but obviously that was a fantasy.

It all went down when the blue screen took over my monitor and left me like a child in the basement, scared and anticipating the worst. It was what I was afraid of. After the initial stomach drop, I attempted to service my problem but ended up with dead ends from all angles. I worked with an obsession for 6 days and 5 nights to get this computer in good standing and it finally as of last night at 3am was up and running. I did not spend a dime in the process.

Being in the middle of so much work and progress this really caught me off guard. looking back in hindsight I would do things differently, but I learned a great deal in the process. Even though i lost a lot, I gained a lot of technical knowledge, and my system is much more stable, and organized. One bit of advice i would give, is to make sure that you have your important stuff backed up and that you take care of viruses caught early on. DO NOT procrastinate unless you have nothing to lose.

In regards to the careless approach that some would say that is the best way to handle tings, I must say, that if it was not for my passion and sheer determination to not lose EVERYTHING, I would not have what I still have. Many would have lost it all.